January 2012
7 posts
November 2011
1 post
Thanksgiving ... Not Living.
I sat here today. Alone. I had some amazing friends invite me to their family functions … Partly I didn’t go because I’m sick and have a 16 hour work day ahead of me on Corporate America’s Favorite Holiday and Partly because, regardless of what they think, I feel like I’m intruding. I thought at my age that I would have a family of my own. One to create holiday...
October 2011
2 posts
untitled #97
just like everything else in life, you tumblr, have been neglected. i’m running on fumes. so i called in sick today. to be perfectly honest, i could have attempted it, but i figured a fever in the morning could sure sneak up upon me in the evening. i don’t give myself time. attention. i feed myself junk. live off of coffee and monsters. could be worse i suppose, i mean i used to live...
August 2011
3 posts
#andyouwonderwhyitaintworkingout
seriously … she’s yelling at you in line. in public. like you are a fucking child. humiliating you. ridiculing you. making you look like an ass. she does all of this because you chose the wrong line. how were you to know that the lady in front of you was going to use fifty five coupons and only half of them worked.
i’ve seen you before. i’ve spoke with you. you are...
The Four Epiphanies and Your Destiny Switch ...
1. You cannot escape from a prison unless you know you are in one … 2. Knowledge alone is not enough … 3. It only takes a little bit of poison to kill … 4. To have it all, you have to be willing to give it all up …
i said good day ...
i did what i finally had to do. put my foot down. not only did i put my foot down, but i dropped an anvil on it, stacked everything i owned, including the kitchen sink, and sealed it with a sucker punch. fucking asshole.
i don’t understand how someone who has nothing expects everyone else to help them out. what the fuck happened to helping your self. i mean everyone is dealt a shitty hand...
July 2011
14 posts
The Waiting One ... All That Remains
Its been a long time since I’ve been able to fall absolutely in love with every song that a band releases … This guy must be in a lot of pain, he speaks my language well.
I am the waiting one it seems Days grow somber quickly Now how the quiet is release And I feel so lonely How did you think I would feel Throw me aside again How did you think I would feel I won’t let...
untitled #17
I don’t know what it is about this state that is irking me so much today. Lets dissect this a little bit …
1. Alcohol. Yes, I used to love alcohol. I used to love getting drunk. I used to love being the chick that could hold down an 18 pack and say, lets get some fucking more. Rarra. I used to love shaking for shot, buying shots, receiving shots, and doing a shot in honor of doing a...
“I Wanna Live, Not Just Exist …”
and sometimes at night ...
… i think about the most awful things. i have no clue why. it’s definitely not a ideal time to start with these thoughts. they keep you up. they stab your soul …
… tonight is no different. i let these thoughts flood my being. now there is a full on battle to make them retreat …
… i hope that one day, i can finally just leave you in my past. if you honestly...
untitled #21
as much as i enjoy this state, and as much as i wanna not love where i’m from, i can’t forget my roots. they are tied into everything i do. i get so fed up and sick of life there, so i run. i force myself to believe that life will be better outside those florida lines. and for a while it is. then all of a sudden, without warning, a sense of homesickness sets in. everything reminds me...
untitled # 5
of all the things i regret, i’m sorry for turning my back on my friends for a stupid boy … cause right now, i need some of you more than i ever thought … and i try to be strong alone … but all the stubbornness, witty comebacks, and whatevers cannot keep my “fuck it” attitude at bay.
untitled #42
as i sit here on my roof top … chain smoking, listening to people laughing, and drinking beer … i realize a couple of things …
1. i’m not the drinker i used to be … three beers in and i’m getting emotional.
2. it is much cooler on my roof than in my house.
and
3. my life is lonely.
i’m not going to deny this is mostly due to me. i made someone my...
June 2011
18 posts
They ask if I know where you are
They ask if I know where you are.
Often I just shake my head.
Your voice whispers to me through the wind, as it blows softly across my cheek.
Your smile is seen after the rain; the bright colors leap from the sky and add a spark of hope to my day.
Your touch radiates through the beams of sunshine, kissing my skin, leaving freckles dancing upon my shoulders.
Your words of wisdom echo in these...
“no matter how old you are … or where you are at in your life …...”
– me
Life consists of 3 easy to remember philosophies: drink like a pirate, smoke like a hippie and drive it like you stole it!
untitled #309
it’s amazing the emotional roller coaster i have been on in the course of a week … i loved him. hated him. wanted him. despised him. accepted him. rejected him. loved him more again. and than one day i woke up. and just didn’t care anymore. one simple sentence from an outsider that doesn’t know me, at all really, sheds some light and the heavens shine, angels sing, and life...
Drug I Need
I’m burning the letters you wrote to me in a fire that I will not forget I’m saying goodbye in my own way, and turning this love into a hate There’s a sadness I feel with letting go, and wanting something you can never hold Forgive me if I’m giving up, but we both know you can’t truly hate something you’ve never loved I hate the way you bring me down, I hate...
“Stories you read when you’re the right age never quite leave you. You may forget...”
– Neil Gaiman, M Is for Magic (via thoughtsdetained)
“There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave...”
– Anonymous
epiphany
i didn’t sleep much last night … i spent it worrying about someone who, i’m pretty sure, does not worry about me when i have an issue. i cried. a lot. somewhere in the tears, i fell asleep. my dreams were vivid. they seemed more than realistic and i woke up finding wanting a this new life i had in my alternate world. because there, there were no tears. there were no fights. no...
May 2011
12 posts
“Never miss an opportunity to make others happy, even if you have to leave them...”
– Author Unknown
untitled #938
i’ve felt absolutely amazing all day. i did something that i’ve wanted to do, and it made me happy. for once in my life, i’m enjoying the way i look. although i could lose some saddlebags here and there, maybe even a muffin top or two, i’m comfortable with me. that added to my happiness for the day.
… and then in one split second, with the lyrics of one stupid little...
“When you lose something it’s just God’s way of saying, ” Just...”
