epiphany
i didn’t sleep much last night … i spent it worrying about someone who, i’m pretty sure, does not worry about me when i have an issue. i cried. a lot. somewhere in the tears, i fell asleep. my dreams were vivid. they seemed more than realistic and i woke up finding wanting a this new life i had in my alternate world. because there, there were no tears. there were no fights. no mistrust. no hatred. it was love. how i think love is truly supposed to be. if it exists in my dreams, it is achievable. i’m a strong person. always have been. i let one boy, a stupid boy, make me forget this. that wont happen again. i want my dream. more than anything, i WANT MY DREAM. so i said goodbye to yesterday. the memories. good and bad. to him. for good. i’m happy. smiles that have been lost will resurface. life is good. 
