untitled #309
it’s amazing the emotional roller coaster i have been on in the course of a week … i loved him. hated him. wanted him. despised him. accepted him. rejected him. loved him more again. and than one day i woke up. and just didn’t care anymore. one simple sentence from an outsider that doesn’t know me, at all really, sheds some light and the heavens shine, angels sing, and life came together. i’m truly happy. it may be hard for some to believe, but i find myself smiling all the time. even when i’m alone. and i think that is what life is about. it took way too long, but i think i’ve finally been able to let go of the “what might have beens” and accept that better things are coming to me. i wanna dance. i wanna sing. i run through a sprinkler naked, muffin top flapping in the wind, screaming “I’M FREE!!” … okay, well maybe not the last part, but i’m ready for what this crazy life is willing to throw my way again. world … beware!
